Okay, so I’ve been diving deep into astrology lately, and Lilith? Super fascinating. I decided to really look into how Lilith plays out in my own chart, specifically in the 8th house. Here’s how that went down:
Getting Started
First, I pulled up my natal chart online. Needed to know exactly where Lilith was hanging out. Turns out, bam – 8th house. I’d read a bit about this placement, so I knew it could be intense. The 8th house is all about shared resources, intimacy, transformation, and even, you know, the taboo stuff.
Research Time
Next, I hit the books (and the internet, obviously). I wanted to get a solid understanding of what Lilith represents – that raw, untamed feminine energy, the part of us that rebels against societal norms. Then, I dug into the 8th house meanings. I needed to see how these two energies might interact.
Journaling It Out
This is where things got personal. I grabbed my journal and started brainstorming. I asked myself some tough questions:
- Where in my life do I feel like I have to hide my true self?
- Am I afraid of my own power, especially in intimate relationships?
- How do I handle shared resources – money, energy, even emotions – with others?
- What things do I hide, and how does that impact my relationships and intimate life?
I just let the words flow, no judgment. Some of it was pretty uncomfortable, to be honest. But it felt important to get it all out.
Observing My Patterns
After the journaling, I started paying closer attention to my daily life. I noticed how I reacted in situations involving shared resources – like splitting a bill with friends, or even just sharing my feelings with my partner. I watched for any moments where I felt that Lilith energy – that urge to rebel, to break free, or to hide my true desires. it’s hard to share myself with others when I don’t know how it’s going to be recieved, so I tend to clam up.
The “Aha!” Moments
Slowly, I started to see some patterns. For example, I realized I had a tendency to give too much in relationships, then resent it later. Classic Lilith in the 8th – struggling with power dynamics and boundaries in intimate spaces. Once you see it, you really can’t unsee it.
Working with the Energy
The final step (which is ongoing, really) is figuring out how to work with this energy, not against it. I’m trying to be more conscious of my needs and desires, and to communicate them more openly. It’s a process, for sure, but it feels like I’m finally starting to understand this deeper part of myself. Definitely more confident, now, too!
