My Journey with Saturn Hanging Out in House 1
Alright, let’s talk about having Saturn sitting right there in the first house. Man, looking back, it explains a lot. Didn’t know much about this stuff when I was younger, obviously, just lived it.
Early Days Felt Heavy
I remember always feeling a bit… older? Like I carried some weight even as a kid. Not sad, exactly, but serious. Like fun wasn’t the main goal, responsibility was. People often said I was mature for my age. Didn’t feel like a compliment back then, just felt like I was missing out on being carefree.
There was this constant sense of needing to be careful, needing to hold back. Like putting a foot wrong would have big consequences. So, I learned to be cautious. Very cautious. Maybe too cautious.
Figuring Things Out
It took me a long time to piece things together. I started noticing patterns in my life. Why did I always feel like I had to work twice as hard for recognition? Why was I so hard on myself? Why did I feel this invisible wall around me sometimes?
- I struggled with just being spontaneous. Everything needed a plan.
- Self-doubt was a constant companion. Always second-guessing myself.
- I often felt kinda awkward or physically restricted, like I wasn’t comfortable in my own skin.
It wasn’t until I started looking into this whole astrology thing, purely out of curiosity, that the phrase “Saturn in the first house” popped up. And I read some descriptions, and man, it clicked. It wasn’t just me being weird; it was a thing. A tough thing, but a thing.
Dealing With It, Day by Day
Knowing about it didn’t magically fix it, of course. It just gave me a framework. I realized I couldn’t fight this energy. Saturn’s about structure, discipline, reality. So, I had to work with it.
What I Started Doing:
- Taking Responsibility: Instead of feeling burdened, I tried to own my responsibilities. See them as building blocks.
- Building Structure: I focused on creating solid routines. Small, achievable goals. Saturn likes effort, slow and steady. So that’s what I gave it.
- Working on Self-Image: This was the hardest. Actively challenging the negative self-talk. Recognizing that the harsh critic was often just Saturn’s fear talking. I had to learn to be my own authority, not just wait for external approval that never felt quite right anyway.
- Physical Discipline: Found that things like regular exercise, paying attention to my posture, actually helped ground me. Made me feel more solid, less restricted.
Where I’m At Now
It’s not like Saturn just packs up and leaves. It’s still there. But the relationship has changed. That weight I felt? It’s morphed into a kind of inner strength, a resilience. The seriousness? It’s become competence, reliability.
I don’t feel held back anymore, not in the same way. It’s more like having a really solid foundation. It took ages to build, lots of hard work, lots of facing uncomfortable truths. But it’s mine. People might see me as reserved or serious still, but now it comes from a place of self-assurance, not fear.
Confidence wasn’t handed to me; I had to earn it, step by painful step. And honestly? Earned confidence feels way more solid. So yeah, Saturn in the 1st… it’s a tough teacher, demands a lot. But stick with it, do the work, and eventually, you build something real and lasting within yourself. That’s been my experience, anyway.
