Okay, so I’ve been diving deep into astrology lately, and one placement that really caught my eye was the Sun in the 12th house. It’s supposed to be all mysterious and hidden, right? So, I decided to get my hands dirty and see what it’s really all about, not just reading about it, you know?
Getting Started: Charting My Own Course
First things first, I pulled up my own natal chart. I’ve used a few different websites before, but this time I just did it myself. Eyeballing where everything falls. Gotta say, seeing that Sun hanging out in the 12th house made me go, “Hmm, interesting…”
The Deep Dive: More Than Meets the Eye
Next, I started journaling. I mean, really journaling. Not just “Dear Diary, today I had toast,” but like, digging into my feelings, my dreams, even those weird random thoughts that pop up when I’m in the shower. I wanted to see if I could find any patterns, anything that screamed “12th house Sun!”
- Dreams: I paid extra attention to my dreams. Wrote them down as soon as I woke up, no matter how bizarre or nonsensical they seemed.
- Alone Time: I made a conscious effort to spend more time alone, just reflecting. Sometimes it was meditation, sometimes it was just sitting in silence, letting my mind wander.
- Inner Critic: I started noticing that nagging voice in my head, the one that’s always second-guessing everything. Is that the 12th house shadow at play?
The “Aha!” Moments (and the Not-So-Aha Ones)
Okay, so it wasn’t all fireworks and revelations. Some days, my journal entries were just a big ol’ pile of “meh.” But then, there were these moments… these little glimmers.
Like, I realized I have this weird habit of downplaying my accomplishments. Almost like I’m afraid of shining too brightly. And then I remembered something about the 12th house being associated with hidden talents and self-undoing. Boom. Mind blown.
I also noticed I’m way more intuitive than I give myself credit for. I started trusting those gut feelings more, and surprisingly, they were often right. Could this be the 12th house Sun’s influence, tapping into that subconscious wisdom?
The Work in Progress
So, here’s the thing: I’m still figuring it all out. It’s not like I suddenly unlocked the secrets of the universe or anything. But I’m learning to embrace that hidden, mysterious part of myself. I’m becoming more comfortable with solitude, with introspection, with the idea that maybe, just maybe, my greatest strength lies in the shadows.
It’s a journey, not a destination, right? And I’m definitely enjoying the ride, even if it’s a little bumpy sometimes. I Will probably keep up with journaling.
