Alright, so let’s talk about this whole “North Node in the 12th House” thing. It’s been a wild ride, to say the least. I started noticing some weird patterns in my life, a pull towards, well, the unknown, I guess. It felt like I was being nudged to dive deep into my own head, and let me tell you, it wasn’t always pretty down there.
I stumbled upon this astrology concept – the North Node. Apparently, it’s like your cosmic GPS, pointing you towards your soul’s purpose. And mine? Smack dab in the 12th house. This house is all about the subconscious, dreams, intuition, secrets, and all that hidden, behind-the-scenes stuff you don’t usually pay attention to. It was like the universe was telling me, “Hey, time to do some soul-searching, buddy!”
So, I started paying more attention to my dreams. I even kept a dream journal, writing down whatever crazy stuff my brain cooked up at night. Some of it was nonsense, but other times, I’d wake up with these strange insights, like puzzle pieces clicking into place. It felt like I was tapping into something, you know? Something deeper than my usual day-to-day thoughts.
Then there was the whole “surrender” part. Man, that was tough. I’m a bit of a control freak, I’ll admit it. But with this North Node placement, I had to learn to let go, to trust that there’s a bigger plan at play, even if I can’t see it. I started practicing meditation, just sitting there, trying to quiet my mind. It was like trying to tame a wild monkey at first, but slowly, I started to find moments of peace, moments where I felt connected to something bigger than myself.
And let’s not forget about the shadow work. That’s a fun one. The 12th house is also about facing your inner demons, the stuff you’ve been sweeping under the rug. I had to confront some uncomfortable truths about myself, my fears, my insecurities. It was like shining a flashlight into the darkest corners of my mind. Not exactly a walk in the park, but it was necessary.
Escapism and Self-Sabotage
- Escapism: I realized I had a tendency to escape into my own little world, especially when things got tough. Sometimes it was through harmless stuff like books or movies, but other times, I’d use less healthy ways to numb out like drinking, this is definitely not good for my health.
- Self-Sabotage: This was a big one. I noticed a pattern of self-sabotage, like I was subconsciously blocking my own path to growth. Maybe it was fear of success, fear of the unknown, or just plain old fear.
The Turning Point
The real turning point came when I hit rock bottom. I’m not going into the gory details, but let’s just say it involved a lot of tears, a lot of questioning, and a whole lot of feeling lost. But it was in that darkness that I found a glimmer of hope. I realized that I couldn’t keep running from myself. I had to face my shadows, embrace my intuition, and trust the journey, even if it was scary as hell.
Finding My Way
So, that’s what I’ve been doing. It’s not a linear path, more like a winding road with lots of detours and bumps along the way. But I’m learning. I’m learning to listen to my inner voice, to trust my gut, and to surrender to the flow of life. I’m starting to understand that true growth comes from within, from facing your fears, and from embracing the unknown.
This North Node in the 12th house journey is definitely not for the faint of heart. It’s messy, it’s challenging, and it’s a whole lot of inner work. But it’s also incredibly rewarding. I’m starting to feel more connected to myself, more connected to something bigger, and more aligned with my soul’s purpose. It’s like I’m finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel, or maybe it’s just the light within me, finally starting to shine through.
