My Journey with That Intense Career Vibe
Okay, so let’s talk about this whole Pluto in the Tenth House thing. For ages, I couldn’t figure out why my relationship with work, with bosses, with just being ‘out there’ in public felt so… heavy. Intense, yeah, that’s the word. It wasn’t just about wanting a job; it felt like life or death sometimes, you know?
I remember my first few jobs. Man, it was like walking into a battlefield every day. Not literally, obviously, but the power dynamics? Woah. I either felt like I had to be completely in control, mapping out everything, or I felt totally crushed by whoever was in charge. There wasn’t much in-between. I butted heads with authority figures constantly. It wasn’t even that I was trying to be difficult, I think. It just felt like they were trying to control me, and I’d dig my heels in so hard.
Looking back, it was all about power. Who had it, who didn’t, and this deep, gut feeling that I needed to have it to survive in the professional world. It made me really driven, almost obsessive sometimes. I’d work myself to the bone, pushing for that next step, that recognition. But it also meant that any setback felt catastrophic. Like, world-endingly bad.
There was this one time, a big project I poured everything into. My reputation was tied up in it. And then, boom. Office politics, a shift in management, whatever it was – the whole thing got pulled. Just like that. It wasn’t just disappointing; it felt like a public execution of my career at the time. I honestly thought I was finished. Had to completely reinvent my path after that.
It took a long time to rebuild. And that’s when I stumbled across some astrology stuff, specifically about this Pluto placement. Suddenly, the pattern made a weird kind of sense. It wasn’t just me being crazy or difficult. It described:
- That intense need for control in my career.
- The power struggles with bosses and the system.
- The feeling that my public image was this high-stakes thing.
- Experiencing those huge crashes and burns, only to have to rise from the ashes.
Learning about it didn’t magically fix everything, obviously. It’s still a part of how I operate. But understanding it helped me navigate it better. I started to recognize when that intense Pluto energy was kicking in – that feeling of needing to dominate or fearing being controlled.
Now, I try to channel it differently. Instead of fighting against power, I try to understand it and use my own influence more carefully. I’ve learned that real power isn’t about dominating others, but about transforming things, including myself. It’s about resilience. Picking yourself up after you get knocked down – and man, with this placement, you get knocked down sometimes.
It’s still a work in progress. That intensity is still there, that drive. But now I see it more as fuel, something that pushes me to dig deep and make a real impact, rather than just a source of conflict. It’s been a wild ride, this Pluto in the Tenth house journey, and definitely not a boring one.
