My Journey with Those Knight of Cups Feelings
Alright, let’s talk about grappling with those Knight of Cups feelings. It’s not always straightforward, you know? For me, it started when I kept noticing this pattern in how I approached new connections, especially the romantic kind. It was like I was always chasing this ideal, this perfect emotional wave.
First Steps: Recognizing the Pattern
I first really clocked it a few years back. I’d meet someone, and bam! Everything felt super intense, full of potential, like a movie scene. I’d get swept up. I remember literally writing down how I felt after a first date once, just pouring out all this hopeful, dreamy stuff. I looked back at it weeks later and barely recognized the situation for what it actually was – just a nice coffee date, nothing more cemented yet.
So, I decided I needed to actually track this. I started journaling, not just about the highs, but specifically about when that overly romantic, maybe slightly unrealistic feeling kicked in. I forced myself to write down the facts of the interaction, separate from the massive emotional story I was building around it.
- Noticed the initial rush of emotion.
- Compared the feeling to the actual events.
- Wrote down objective facts vs. subjective dreams.
Trying Things Differently
Okay, recognizing it was one thing. Doing something about it? That was harder. My next step was consciously trying to slow myself down. When that Knight of Cups energy surged – that urge to make grand gestures or declare undying affection after knowing someone for like, a week – I actively practiced pausing.
I’d literally tell myself, “Hold on, let’s see how things unfold.” I tried focusing more on the other person’s actions and less on the fantasy in my head. It felt unnatural at first. Like I was being boring or cynical. I remember one time specifically wanting to send this really over-the-top message, full of poetry and stuff. I typed it all out. Then I just stared at it. And deleted it. Sent a simple “Hey, had a nice time tonight” instead. Felt weird, but also… less pressure?
What I Learned Through Doing It
Going through this process, actually doing the slowing down and the reality checks, taught me a bunch. It wasn’t about killing the romance, but about grounding it. That Knight energy is beautiful, it brings charm and inspires action, but it needs reins.
Where I Am Now
Now, when I feel that familiar idealistic rush, I don’t fight it completely, but I recognize it. I greet it like an old friend who’s maybe a bit dramatic. I let myself feel the hope, but I pair it with observation. I watch if the actions – mine and theirs – match the beautiful words or feelings. It’s less about getting swept away uncontrollably and more about consciously riding the wave, knowing where the shore is. It’s still a practice, definitely not perfect, but it feels more real, more sustainable. It’s my way of handling those Knight of Cups moments when they show up in my life.
