Okay, so, I’ve always been a bit fascinated by dreams, you know? Like, what do they mean? And dolls and clowns… they pop up a lot, and they’re pretty loaded symbols. So, I decided to do a little experiment on myself. I would track when dolls and clowns appeared in my dreams, and then write down how I felt the next day.
I started keeping a dream journal right by my bed. Gotta have it handy, right? First few nights, nothing. Just the usual weird dream stuff – flying, showing up to school naked, you know the drill. Total random chaos.
First Encounters
Then, boom. One night, I dreamt I was a kid again, and there was this HUGE clown, like, towering over me. He wasn’t scary, though. More… sad. He was juggling these little porcelain dolls, and they kept falling and breaking. It was super unsettling.
I woke up that morning feeling… off. Not bad, just… melancholy. I wrote it all down, every detail I could remember. The clown’s droopy eyes, the sound of the dolls shattering, that weird feeling of sadness. Everything.
A couple of weeks went by, with some random dreams in between that wasn’t part of this journey. Then, another one. This time, I was in a toy store, surrounded by shelves and shelves of dolls. They were all staring at me, and their eyes seemed to follow me as I walked. Creepy!
Woke up the next day feeling pretty anxious. Like I was being watched, or judged. Seriously, dolls are intense, man. Wrote that all down, too. Started noticing a pattern – dolls seemed to bring up feelings of being observed, maybe even controlled.
Diving Deeper
I kept at it for a few months. Sometimes it was just a fleeting image – a clown balloon in the distance, a doll’s arm sticking out from under a bed. Other times, it was a full-blown narrative, like the one with the juggling clown.
What I started to realize was that these weren’t just random images. They were connected to how I was feeling in my waking life. Clowns, for me, seemed to represent hidden sadness, or maybe a fear of vulnerability. The feeling of being silly or not taken seriously.
- Clowns showed up when things are sad or hidden.
- Dolls showed up when I am feeling insecure.
Dolls? They were all about control, or the lack of it. Feeling like I was being watched, judged, or manipulated. Like I was a puppet on strings.
The Takeaway
Now, I’m no dream expert, okay? This was just my personal experiment. But it was super interesting! It made me pay more attention to my feelings, both in my dreams and when I was awake. It’s like my subconscious was trying to tell me something, using these crazy symbols.
So, yeah, if you’re curious about your dreams, give it a try! Grab a notebook, start writing stuff down. You might be surprised at what you discover about yourself. It’s a wild ride inside our heads, people!
