Okay, so, I’ve been messing around with this idea of “you disappearing,” right? And I wanted to kind of dig into the symbolism behind it. Not in a super deep, academic way, but just, like, what it means when we feel like we’re fading away or losing ourselves. I got this idea the other day when I was walking, and this really sad song came up on my playlist, that really got me into the mood.
I started by jotting down some thoughts in my notebook. Just free-writing, you know? What does it feel like to disappear? What are the images that come to mind? I wrote a bunch of stuff, but I did have a few things that stuck with me. Stuff like shadows, fog, echoes, things fading to gray. Also, stuff like being in a crowded room, trying to say something, but you don’t really have a voice or something. Also about getting lost in a maze, or staring into a mirror and not recognizing the person looking back. You know, all that fun stuff.
Then, I wanted to see what other people had to say about this. So, I did some casual browsing online, just typing in phrases like “feeling invisible” or “losing your identity.” I didn’t want anything too heavy, just wanted to see what resonated with others. I found some cool poems, some song lyrics, and even some psychology articles that were talking about this kind of experience.
Visuals
After that, I started sketching. I’m not much of an artist, but I wanted to get some of these images down on paper. I drew a figure slowly dissolving into smoke, a person trapped in a glass box, and a face reflected in shattered glass. It was kind of cathartic, actually. I mean the sketching part, not the disappearing part, just to be clear.
Next, I made a playlist. Yeah, I know, it sounds kind of corny, but music always helps me process stuff. I added songs that had that kind of melancholic vibe, songs about feeling lost or disconnected. It was a mix of stuff, some indie, some classical, even a bit of jazz. I think music always helps with setting the mood, and understanding something that doesn’t really have words attached to it.
Then, I wrote a short story. Just a quick one, about a character who wakes up one day and starts to literally disappear. It wasn’t meant to be, like, a masterpiece or anything, just a way for me to explore the idea a bit more. I tried to capture the feeling of isolation, the frustration of not being seen or heard, and the weird sense of detachment that comes with it.
Finally, I shared some of my thoughts and creations with a couple of close friends. I didn’t want to, like, dump all this on them, but I wanted to get their perspectives. It was interesting to hear their takes, and it helped me see things in a new light. I think it helped that we were all on the same page about the whole disappearing thing. Not that any of us are actually disappearing, it’s just, something that we all think about sometimes.
So, yeah, that’s basically what I did. It wasn’t some grand project or anything, just a way for me to explore this idea of “you disappearing” and the symbolism behind it. It was a bit of a personal journey, but also kind of fun in a weird, introspective way. I just thought that maybe someone out there would also want to hear about it, and I wanted to share it with you guys. This has been my experience with it, so tell me what you think.
