My Journey with Pluto in the 2nd House
Alright, let’s talk about having Pluto kicking around in the 2nd house. Forget the fancy descriptions for a minute. I want to share what it actually felt like, day in and day out, trying to figure this placement out through living it.
For the longest time, I didn’t connect the dots. I just knew I had this really intense, almost obsessive relationship with money and stuff. Not always in a greedy way, more like a deep-seated fear way. Fear of not having enough. Fear of losing what I did have. It felt like my survival, my actual power in the world, was directly tied to my bank account or the things I owned.
Early days were rough, honestly.
- I’d hoard things, not necessarily valuable stuff, just… stuff. Letting go felt like losing a part of myself.
- Money was a constant source of anxiety. Even when I had enough, the fear was always lurking just beneath the surface.
- I remember going through phases of extreme control – budgeting every single penny, freaking out over small, unexpected expenses.
- Then there were times I’d swing the other way, almost self-sabotaging, like spending recklessly as if tempting fate to take it all away just to get it over with. It was a weird push-pull.
I started noticing patterns, especially in jobs and how I valued myself. My self-worth got completely tangled up with how much I earned. If I got a raise, I felt powerful. If I faced a setback, like a project getting cancelled or even just criticism about my work related to its ‘value’, it felt like a personal attack, like my core worth was being questioned. It wasn’t just about the money; it was about control and power, channeled through finances and possessions.
The turning point wasn’t one big event, but a slow burn realization.
I began to see that this constant struggle, this intensity, wasn’t sustainable. It was exhausting. I started actively trying to detach my sense of security from just the material stuff. It wasn’t easy.
What I started doing:
- Consciously questioning my motives when I felt that obsessive grip tighten around money or possessions. Asking myself, “What am I really afraid of right now?”
- Practicing letting go. Starting small, like clearing out clutter I didn’t need. It sounds simple, but it was a real exercise in releasing that control.
- Focusing on developing inner resources – skills, knowledge, resilience. Things nobody could take away. This started shifting my definition of ‘security’.
- Being brutally honest about power dynamics involving money, whether in jobs or relationships. Recognizing when I was trying to control others or feeling controlled through finances.
It felt like digging deep, confronting some pretty uncomfortable truths about my fears and desires. Pluto doesn’t mess around; it forces transformation. For me, in the 2nd house, it was all about transforming my relationship with value, security, and power as it relates to the material world.
Now? It’s not like the intensity is completely gone. It’s more like I understand the energy better. I can recognize the old patterns starting up and choose a different response. The fear of lack isn’t totally gone, but it doesn’t control me like it used to. I’ve learned that real security comes from within, from resourcefulness, and from understanding that true power isn’t just about what you own, but about mastering your own inner world and fears. It’s an ongoing process, but looking back, the journey, tough as it was, definitely forced some deep and necessary changes in how I see myself and my resources.
