My Journey with the North Node in the 10th House
Alright, let’s talk about this North Node in the 10th house thing. For the longest time, I didn’t really get it. Astrology stuff seemed kinda out there, you know? But things weren’t clicking in my life, especially career-wise. I felt like I was just drifting, doing things because they felt safe or familiar, mostly sticking close to home, focusing on my private life. That felt like where I should be.
Looking back, that was totally my South Node in the 4th house talking. It’s all about home, family, roots, feeling secure in my little bubble. And yeah, that felt comfortable. Too comfortable, maybe. I kept bumping up against this feeling that I was supposed to be doing… more. Something out in the world. But the idea? Honestly, it freaked me out.
So, I started digging into this North Node stuff. Found out mine was in the 10th house – the house of career, public image, reputation, responsibility. My first reaction was kinda like, “No way, that’s not me.” I liked being behind the scenes. The thought of being ‘out there,’ being responsible for big things, having people look at me? Felt super awkward.
But things kept pushing me. Little nudges.
- A job opportunity that required more leadership than I was used to.
- Feeling really unsatisfied just keeping my head down.
- People actually asking for my opinion on bigger stuff, which was weird.
So, I decided to just try. It wasn’t some big overnight change. It was small stuff first. I started by actually thinking about what I wanted my career to look like, not just what paid the bills or kept things stable at home. That was harder than it sounds. I had to untangle my own ambitions from what I thought my family expected or what felt ‘safe’.
Then came the scary part: actually putting myself out there. I volunteered to lead a small project at work. My stomach was in knots the whole time. I started speaking up more in meetings, even when my voice shook a little. I focused on building a reputation based on my own work, my own skills. It felt like climbing a mountain in flip-flops sometimes.
The weird thing? The more I stepped into that 10th house energy – taking charge, being visible, focusing on my public role – the less resistance I felt from the universe, you know? It wasn’t always easy, still isn’t sometimes. There’s this pull back to the comfort of the 4th house, just wanting to retreat. But I found that leaning into the 10th house stuff, building something out in the world, actually started to feel… right. Like clicking a piece into place.
It’s still a process, for sure. I’m constantly learning how to balance that public role with my private needs. But recognizing that push towards the 10th house, towards building my own structure and reputation in the world, was a huge turning point. It stopped feeling like a chore and started feeling like my actual path. It’s about finding my authority, my place out there, not just hiding away. And yeah, it’s still a work in progress, always is.
