Alright, let’s talk about that Sun conjunct Pluto transit. I went through it, and wow, it was something else. Not gonna lie, it felt heavy for a while there.
It started subtly, I guess. Just this feeling deep down that things weren’t quite right, that something needed to change in a big way. My energy felt weirdly intense, almost obsessive about certain things in my life I usually wouldn’t sweat. I found myself questioning things I thought I had figured out about myself, about who I am.
Then it really kicked in. Felt like I was under a microscope, and not in a good way. Everything felt super charged. Small disagreements blew up into massive power struggles, mostly inside my own head, but sometimes spilling out with people close to me. It was like all my hidden fears and insecurities decided to throw a party right in my face.
Facing the Shadows
I remember spending a lot of time just feeling… stuck. Like I was wrestling with this invisible force. There was this strong urge to control situations, to make things go my way, probably because deep down I felt incredibly powerless. Pluto really digs that stuff up, doesn’t it? The control issues, the secrets, the stuff you don’t want to look at.
I had to confront some parts of myself I wasn’t proud of. My ego (that’s the Sun part, right?) took a real beating. It felt like I had to let go of an old version of me that just wasn’t working anymore. It wasn’t exactly fun. There were days I just wanted to hide, felt completely drained, like I was wading through mud.
What helped, eventually, was stopping the fight. I realized I couldn’t control this energy, I just had to experience it. Sounds simple, but it was hard. I started trying to be honest with myself, really honest, about my motivations, my fears. Why was I reacting so strongly? What was really bothering me underneath it all?
Coming Out the Other Side
Slowly, as the intensity started to fade, things began to shift. It wasn’t like flipping a switch, more like the clouds parting bit by bit. I felt… different. Stripped down, maybe? Like I’d gone through a fire and burned off a lot of dead wood.
I felt more authentic, somehow. Less concerned with surface appearances and more in touch with what actually mattered to me on a core level. It forced me to own my own power, not in a controlling way, but in an empowering way. To face my own darkness and realize it didn’t have to run the show.
So yeah, Sun conjunct Pluto. It was rough, demanding, and deeply transformative. Didn’t enjoy it while I was in the thick of it, but looking back? It cleared out a lot of crap and forced me to level up. Definitely an experience I won’t forget.
