Okay, so yesterday I was messing around with my tarot cards, trying to get a grip on some feelings I’ve been having. Nothing too serious, just the usual “what’s going on in my head” kinda stuff.
I decided to do a super simple one-card draw, focusing specifically on romantic feelings. I shuffled the deck, really concentrating on the question: “What are the feelings surrounding this situation?” Pulled a card, flipped it over… bam! Two of Pentacles.
At first, I was like, “Okay, cool…finances?” But then I remembered I was asking about feelings, duh. So, I started digging deeper. I mean, the Two of Pentacles, it’s all about balance, juggling things, keeping things in motion, right? I felt like I needed to understand how it connected to my emotions, and how it was playing out in my specific context.
I started by thinking about the imagery of the card itself. Usually, there’s someone juggling two coins, often with a sort of carefree expression, sometimes with waves in the background. I thought, “Okay, juggling…am I feeling pulled in two different directions emotionally?” Maybe. The waves in the background made me think about instability, maybe feeling like things are a bit turbulent.
I then spent like a good half hour just free-writing in my journal. I asked myself a bunch of questions. “Am I trying to balance too many things at once, and is that affecting my feelings?” “Am I afraid of dropping the ball in some area?” “Is there a sense of playful adaptability in how I approach my feelings, or am I just stressed out?”
Here’s what I figured out:
- Emotional Overload: I realized I’ve been trying to juggle work, personal life, and this whole potential relationship thing, and it’s leaving me feeling emotionally scattered. Like I can’t fully invest in any one thing because I’m constantly worried about the others.
- Fear of Commitment (maybe): The balancing act also made me think about commitment. Was I holding back emotionally because I was afraid of losing my balance? Afraid of what would happen if I fully invested in this person and things didn’t work out?
- Need for Flexibility: But, on the flip side, the card also suggested that there’s an element of flexibility and adaptability. Maybe it’s not necessarily a bad thing to be juggling things, as long as I’m not getting overwhelmed. Maybe it’s about learning to roll with the punches.
So, what did I do with all this information? Well, first, I gave myself a break. I stopped trying to be perfect in every area of my life. I consciously made an effort to prioritize, to say “no” to things that weren’t truly important, and to give myself permission to not have everything figured out.
And when it came to the romantic side of things, I decided to be more honest with myself (and with the other person) about where I was at emotionally. Instead of trying to pretend I had it all together, I admitted that I was feeling a bit overwhelmed and unsure. Turns out, being vulnerable can actually be a good thing.
The Two of Pentacles, in the end, wasn’t just about feeling overwhelmed. It was about recognizing that life is a balancing act, and that sometimes it’s okay to wobble a little bit. It’s about finding a sustainable rhythm, not necessarily achieving perfect stillness. And for me, that meant letting go of some control and embracing the messy, unpredictable nature of feelings.
