Okay, so I’ve been diving deep into synastry lately, and the Mars in the 12th house placement has been a real head-scratcher. I decided to document my little experiment with it, to help maybe clarify things for myself, and, you know, share the messy process with whoever’s interested.
Starting Point: Total Confusion
First, I grabbed my own chart and the chart of someone I have a, let’s say, complex connection with. I already knew we had some intense aspects, but I hadn’t specifically looked at Mars placements in synastry before.
Digging into the Charts
I used this free online tool to generate the synastry chart – it’s pretty basic, but it does the job. Boom. There it was. His Mars, smack-dab in my 12th house. My initial reaction? “Well, crap.” I’d read all sorts of things about hidden enemies, secret resentments, and subconscious sabotage. Not exactly encouraging.
The “Research” Phase (aka Googling Like Crazy)
Next, I, of course, went down the internet rabbit hole. I read tons of articles, forum posts, you name it. The general consensus seemed to be that this placement could manifest in a few ways:
- Undermining each other unintentionally.
- Hidden anger or competitiveness.
- A strong, almost psychic connection, but with a potential for manipulation.
- Feeling drained by the other person’s energy.
Trying to Apply it to Real Life
This is where it got tricky. I tried to be really honest with myself. Did I feel secretly resentful towards him? Did I sense him being passive-aggressive? Honestly, it was hard to tell. There was a lot of unspoken stuff between us, a kind of simmering energy that I couldn’t quite put my finger on.
Sometimes I get extremely tired after our meets. And I always thought I might be too sensitive.
Experiment Time: Journaling and Observation
So, I decided to get a little more methodical. I started keeping a journal, specifically focusing on how I felt before, during, and after our interactions. I also made a conscious effort to observe his behavior more closely, looking for any subtle cues that might reveal hidden frustrations or manipulations.
The Results (So Far)
It’s still early days, but I’ve noticed a few things. Firstly, there’s definitely a strong intuitive connection. I often know what he’s thinking before he says it, and vice versa. Secondly, there have been a couple of instances where I felt like he was subtly trying to control the situation, though it was hard to be 100% sure. The journaling has helped me identify some of my own passive-aggressive tendencies, which was a bit of a wake-up * I confirmed my tiredness after seeing him. I need to figure out how to deal with that.
Conclusion (For Now)
My Mars in the 12th house synastry experiment is ongoing. It’s messy, confusing, and sometimes uncomfortable, but it’s also been incredibly insightful. I’m learning a lot about myself, my patterns, and the subtle dynamics of this particular relationship.
I am going to keep my journal. And let’s see what will happen in the future.
It’s definitely not a straightforward placement, but I’m starting to think it’s less about “hidden enemies” and more about uncovering the hidden parts of ourselves that get projected onto the other person. It’s all about awareness, I guess. Still figuring it out, though!
