Okay, so I’ve been digging into this whole astrology thing, and I saw something about “Mars in the 12th house.” I didn’t really know what it meant, so I decided to check it out, figure out what’s up with my chart. It’s kinda like a cosmic self-help experiment, I guess.
First, I had to, you know, actually find my birth chart. I used one of these free online things, cause, I am not spending money on this…yet. I entered my birth date, time, and place. It’s kinda creepy how much they ask for, but whatever.
My Birth Chart
- Sun: Somewhere I don’t remember.
- Moon: Something else.
- Mars: 12th House! Bingo!
So, there it was. Mars, my “action” planet, apparently hanging out in the 12th house, which, from what I gathered, is all about the subconscious, hidden stuff, and, like, karma. Deep, right?
Next, I needed to actually understand all that. I read a bunch of articles. Some were super woo-woo, talking about past lives and stuff. Others were more psychological, talking about hidden anger and self-sabotage. It was a mix of “whoa, that’s deep” and “hmm, maybe…”
I started to think about my own life. Am I, like, secretly angry? Do I hold myself back without realizing it? I tried to be really honest with myself, which is, uh, harder than it sounds.I Started to see the pattern, and the habbit of my * really shocked me.
I decided to keep a journal for a week, just jotting down times I felt frustrated, or when I felt like I messed something up on purpose (even if it was a small thing). It was kinda awkward at first, writing down all my feelings. Not my usual style.
After a week, I looked back at the journal. There were definitely some moments where I could see, “Oh, yeah, I was kinda being passive-aggressive there,” or “I totally could have done that, but I just…didn’t.” It wasn’t, like, a huge revelation, but more like a bunch of little “ah-ha” moments.
So, what’s the conclusion? I don’t know if I’m a changed person or anything. But I’m definitely more aware of how I might be getting in my own way. It’s like this Mars in the 12th house thing gave me a little nudge to pay attention to the stuff I usually ignore. And hey, that’s something, right?
I am not sure I’d get all my actions and energy,but I think I will keep doing this and tracking how it goes. Maybe it’s all nonsense, maybe it’s not. But it’s kinda fun, this whole cosmic detective work.
