Okay, so I’ve been digging into this whole “animal totem” thing lately, and I decided to focus on the gorilla. It just seemed… powerful, you know? So, here’s how I went about exploring my connection with the gorilla as a potential animal totem.
Getting Started: Research, I Guess
First, I looked up some basic info about gorillas. Like, what are they actually like? I read some articles, watched some nature documentaries – the usual. It was cool to see them in their natural habitat, how they interact with each other, their families, that sort of thing.
Trying to Connect: Meditation and Stuff
Then came the slightly weirder part. I tried meditating, focusing on the image of a gorilla. I’m not gonna lie, it felt a little silly at first. I sat there, closed my eyes, and tried to “feel” the gorilla’s presence. I imagined its strength, its groundedness, its protective nature. Did I feel anything profound? Honestly, not really at first. It was more like… I was just thinking about gorillas a lot.
- Spent like 15 minutes each day just sitting and visualizing.
- Used a picture of a gorilla as a focal point sometimes.
- Mostly just felt like I was daydreaming.
Journaling My (Non)Progress
I also started keeping a journal. I wrote down any dreams I had that might relate to gorillas (spoiler: there weren’t many). I noted any times during the day when I felt particularly strong or protective, or when I felt a strong connection to nature. It was mostly just a record of me trying to connect, rather than actually connecting.
The “Aha!” Moment (Kind Of)
Okay, so there wasn’t a HUGE lightning bolt moment. But, after a few weeks of this, I did start to notice something. I found myself being a bit more assertive in my daily life. Not aggressive, just… more confident in standing my ground. I also felt a little more connected to my family, more protective of them. Was this the gorilla influence? Maybe. Or maybe I was just becoming more aware of these qualities within myself.
The Verdict?
So, is the gorilla my animal totem? I’m still not 100% sure. But the process of exploring it was definitely interesting. It made me think about my own strengths and weaknesses, and how I relate to the world around me. I think I’ll keep exploring this, maybe try focusing on a different animal next time. It’s a journey, right?
