Okay, so today I decided to mess around with that whole square Venus-Pluto aspect in my chart. I’ve heard it can be, uh, intense when it comes to relationships and maybe even money stuff, so I figured, why not dive in and see what happens?
First, I pulled up my birth chart online. I already knew I had this aspect, but I wanted to see it visually, you know? There it was, that harsh red line connecting Venus and Pluto. Yikes.
Digging into Feelings
Next, I started to journal. I just started free-writing about my current relationship status (complicated, to say the least) and any frustrations I’ve been having with, well, finances. It’s always something, right?
- I wrote down every single thought that popped into my head, even the really messy and embarrassing ones.
- I noticed a pattern of feeling like I needed to control things, both in love and with money.
- It was like this underlying fear of not being enough, or of things falling apart.
Facing the Fears
Then, I did something a little scary. I decided to have a real conversation.
First, I talked to my partner that was very close to me and, I was open and honest about my control issues and how they might be impacting us. It was tough, but a total relief to get it off my chest.
And after that, I spent some time listing out my financial anxieties.
- I created a simple budget to get a better handle on where my money is actually going.
- I identified one small, concrete step I could take to feel more in control of my finances (starting with paying off that one credit card that’s been bugging me).
Small victories
It might not seem like much, but even these tiny actions made me feel a little more empowered.
Finally, I ended the day by doing something nice for myself. I figured I deserved it after all that emotional heavy lifting. I put some soothing essential oils and it smelled really nice.
This whole square Venus-Pluto thing is definitely a work in progress. But today felt like a good start. I’m learning to face my fears, be more honest, and maybe, just maybe, loosen my grip a little. It’s all about baby steps, right?
