Okay, so, I’ve been digging into this whole astrology thing, and Chiron in the 8th house? It’s a doozy. I mean, it’s supposed to be all about deep wounds related to intimacy, shared resources, and transformation. Sounded heavy, and honestly, I was a little freaked out to even look at it.
First, I pulled up my birth chart online. You know, one of those free sites. Typed in my birth date, time, and place. Boom. There it was, Chiron, chilling in my 8th house. My initial reaction? “Oh, crap.” I’m not gonna lie.
Facing My Fears (and My Chart)
I started by just reading. Anything I could find about Chiron in the 8th. Articles, forum posts, you name it. It talked about things like fear of vulnerability, control issues in relationships, maybe some baggage around money or inheritance… It was a lot to take in. I definitely felt overwhelmed at points, but i keep reading.
Then, I decided to be a little more structured. I grabbed a notebook – a real, physical notebook, because I’m old-school like that – and started journaling. I just free-wrote about my relationships. Past ones, the current ones, the messy ones, the good ones (if there were any!).
- I wrote down my fears about getting close to people.
- I explored my feelings about sharing things – not just physical possessions, but also my feelings, my time, my energy.
- I dug into any patterns I noticed. Was I always the one giving? Was I always holding back? Was I attracting certain types of people? Ouch.
It was messy. Some days, I just stared at the page, not knowing what to write. Other days, the words just poured out. I cried a few times, not gonna lie. It felt like I was dredging up all this old stuff that I’d tried to bury.
The next thing I tried was talking to someone. I have this friend who’s also into astrology, so I confided in her. It felt good to just say the words out loud, to admit that I was struggling with some of this stuff. She didn’t judge, which was huge.
I’m still working through it, to be honest. It’s not like I had some magical epiphany and everything is perfect now. But I feel like I’m more aware. I’m trying to be more conscious of my patterns in relationships, and I’m trying to be a little more open, a little more vulnerable. It’s scary, but also… kind of liberating.
So, yeah, Chiron in the 8th house. It’s a journey, not a destination. And I’m definitely still on that road, bumpy as it may be. My little notebook is totally filled with my deep and dark thoughts, It’s a little embarrassing, but it’s real, you know?
